This was somewhat surprising

Last night, after my somewhat depressing entry, I went back to watching Charmed and pulled out my Shapely Boyfriend Cardigan. I am by no means anywhere close to being done but I am on the last third of the waist shaping. After that it's hip shaping and after that, I should really refer back to the pattern and write it out. I think it's the ribbing and sleeves, then finishing touches like collar and butting paneling and such. I still haven't purchased or discovered any buttons to finish it off with. I do have the 5 wooden buttons that I purchased for the Annisette Cardi but the Shapely Boyfriend requires 7. I'll have to see what I can do about it.

Personal diatribe

I guess it's safe-ish to put my rambling here where it's somewhat annonymous as opposed to Facebook, where I know my friends and family can see it. I just really need to get this out somewhere.

I am aware that I am socially inept (self-diagnosis). That would likely explain why I have very few close friends who are not family and it's not often I feel the need to be close to anyone. To me, I've always been like 10 years behind my peers socially. Heck even until this day, I don't get or understand how people get into a romantic relationship. I'm 32 and have never been anywhere close to gettin in one and as time goes on, I'm starting to care less and less whether or not it happens.

I am past the point where I cry every few months for not being in a relationship. All that got me was bags under my eyes an a massive headache. I've come to the conclusion that if it happens, it happens but it most likely will not happen. You really can't fully miss what you never had.

I don't really think I'm good at being a good friend either. I have these moments where I just want to be by myself. So people call, I don't answer the phone. They send a text, they are lucky if I even read it. I scan any email I see. I'll read it but I won't respond. I know this bothers people but half of the time, but I feel as if I do respond, it will not be genuine. I very much prefer genuineness over just doing a duty. I'm not sure if I want to change that from my character. I don't like fake and I don't want people telling me to do something fake because I'm supposed to do some kind of social nicety.

Someone close to me got into a car accident. They are fine. There are no broken bones, no fracture, no brain damage. Just a sore neck and back that will heal and probably turn then into a human barometer as time goes on. I was at the house when it happens. I left the next morning to do something that was prearranged. I went home afterwards. Apparently, it was expected that I was to stay with them. They have their family to stay with them. As far as I could see, I was not needed and there was nothing further i could do. The next day I called and there was no response nor was there the opportunity to leave a message. I sent a text the next day. They said they were fine and a few messages were exchanged. Now 2 days later, my mom is upset because I have not called or contacted since. She's fine and I'll be seeing her on the weekend.

I don't know if this makes me seem cold but there is nothing I can do, whether I am there or not. It seems kinda stupid to me to call and report back that she's find like the past few days. We don't really have anything to talk about and I don't really do small talk so what's the point? 

I have never been one of those people who spends hours on the phone. I'm lucky if I even make it to 20 minutes for the month in my phone. I don't talk much and when I do have something to say and I don't get a chance to say a word about it, it makes me feel even less inclined to talk to the person.

The only thing I'm starting to worry about is if this is the first step to becoming a hermit.

It's happened twice!

And it's annoying! I was working on another square for the Blankie and then put it down to so something else. Now I come back to do it and I see the red cord of my ChiaoGoo circular needles. I follow the cord and find the tip with no knitting on it. "Okay," I think to myself. "Must be on the other side." That needle is bare too. "Maybe it was on another set of needles? Please, not likely, be on another set of needles!"

It was not :( I'm not good at picking up stitches, especially when there are decreases and increases. So I just frogged the square and I'm getting ready to start it again.

For me personally, it seems as if the plans I had for myself will have to be readjusted. As far as I can see, it (meaning my schooling) will still finish the same time. I guess this will also give me an opportunity to get some more money for my living expenses. 

Year of Projects: Week 4

This was a Spock sock/Blankie week.

I believe I made a lot of progress on the Spock sock until an incident occurred over the weekend which made me stop. I knew I wouldn't be able to concentrate enough to do the socks so I moved onto the Blankie.  Good thing I travelled with 2 projects.

I added 3.5 squares and it's coming along nicely. I actually received many compliments from people at my church when they saw me working on it yesterday. 

It still feels like a Blankie type of week so I can't say if the Spock socks will be done by this time next week. I do think I can manage to put in some work on it during the knitting circles this week.

Not quite off topic but isn't this a beautiful shade of blue?

I guess this week will be a short update.

No time

I was hoping that at some point today, I'd be able to post a "Year of Projects" updates but alas, there has been no time.

My bestfriend got into a car accident which threw everything off course. The knitting projects were dropped and I went to man the phones and field phone calls. Today I had to take over her job at the Food Bank plus it was Free Market day at church as well.

I came home and napped because I was tired and then talked with my family which lasted much longer than anticipated. Last thing was to prepare for my appointment tomorrow morning. I think I have everything organized.

But still no time for the YOP update. Tomorrow it is.

Blankie away the stress

I really didn't want to work on anything else but the Spock socks until they were done. Unfortunately, I need some kind of mindless knitting to de-stress and the only other project I travelled with was the Blankie. I feel as if I should get a good amount of work done. Onto Charmed on Netflix.

Moving right along...

It may not look like a lot to some people but I feel like I've done significant work in the Spock socks. I have under one pattern repeat before I start the heel flap and then not much further to go (turn heel, gusset, foot and toe - all of which can go pretty quickly). It's also amazing how much the colour changes depending on where I take the picture.

Off to continue watching Charmed on Netflix :)